The first thing new students noticed was not the buildings or the classrooms or even the crowded corridors filled with chatter. It was the silence that followed certain footsteps.
Conversations would dissolve mid sentence, laughter would shrink into tight smiles, and eyes would suddenly find the floor. It was not respect. It was something heavier, something that sat in the chest and made breathing feel like a task.
On the first day, many dismissed it as discipline.
After all, every institution needed order. Every system needed structure. But slowly, quietly, almost invisibly, that idea began to change shape.
In one of the classrooms, a student stood beside a desk, hands trembling slightly. The rest of the class avoided looking directly at the scene unfolding.
“Answer the question,” came the voice from the front.
“I tried, but I am not sure if I understood it fully,” the student replied, voice barely steady.
“Not sure?” the voice echoed, rising just enough to draw attention. “You come here, you take a seat meant for someone capable, and you say you are not sure?”
A faint murmur passed through the room, quickly suppressed.
“Look at your classmates,” the voice continued. “Do you think they came here to watch you fail?”
No one spoke. No one moved.
“Maybe failing suits you,” the voice added. “It certainly suits your effort.”
The student nodded, not because there was agreement, but because disagreement had consequences. That was something everyone learned early.
What began as correction slowly became humiliation. What began as authority turned into control.
Assignments were not just tasks. They were instruments. A missed detail could invite a remark that lingered long after the class ended. A slight hesitation could become a label that followed a student across semesters.
“I will remember this,” the voice would say sometimes, almost casually.
Those words carried weight.
They meant internal marks could shift.
They meant evaluations could turn unpredictable.
They meant that performance alone was not enough.
In corridors, students spoke in fragments.
“Did you submit?”
“Yes.”
“Was it enough?”
“I do not know.”
That uncertainty was not accidental. It was cultivated.
One afternoon, a group gathered near the back staircase, away from watchful eyes.
“This is not right,” one of them whispered. “We cannot keep living like this.”
“Lower your voice,” another replied quickly. “If someone hears…”
“So what if they hear?” the first insisted. “We are not doing anything wrong.”
“That is not how it works here,” came the response. “Right or wrong does not matter.”
There was a pause. A heavy one.
“Then what matters?”
“Who is watching.”
The system had its own language, unspoken but understood.
There were those who adapted. They learned quickly. They stayed silent when needed, spoke when it was safe, agreed even when they disagreed.
They survived.
Then there were those who questioned. Not loudly, not recklessly, but enough to be noticed.
Those were the ones who struggled.
Some of them were sent for counseling.
“I think you are overreacting,” the counselor would begin, voice calm, practiced. “You need to understand that environments can be challenging.”
The student sat quietly, hands clasped.
“You need to focus on your response,” the counselor continued. “You need to adapt. You need to regulate your emotions. You need to build resilience.”
The repetition of you.... you....you...filled the room.
“But what about what is happening?” the student asked. “It is not just me.”
“You need to control what you can control,” came the reply. “You need to change how you interpret these situations. You need to avoid taking things personally.”
There was a pause.
“So it is my fault?” the student asked, almost whispering.
“It is not about fault,” the counselor said quickly. “It is about growth. You need to grow through this.”
The words sounded structured, almost rehearsed.
“You need to stop expecting fairness from everyone. You need to focus on your goals. You need to not let external factors affect you.”
The counselor concluded the session with a prolonged yawn eyeing the appointment list searching for the next client while accepting the exorbitant fees handed over by the exhausted and miserable parents.
Parents had a fact finding session with the counselor before their college kid's session. They thought they would get compassionate guidance from the counselor but it was bracing for judgment.
Within minutes, the conversation turned toward what they had “missed” as parents.
Every concern they raised about was gently redirected back as their responsibility.
They exchanged uneasy glances, sensing the familiar undertone of blame dressed as insight.
By the time their session ended they became burdened by quiet guilt.
Outside the room, nothing changed.
Inside the room, everything was redirected.
In another classroom, a presentation was underway. Slides flickered on the screen as a student explained their work, voice steady despite the tension in the air.
Halfway through, the interruption came.
“Stop.”
The word cut through everything.
“Is this what you call effort?”
The student hesitated. “I followed the guidelines…”
“Guidelines?” the voice repeated with a faint laugh. “Do not hide behind words.”
A few students shifted in their seats. Their heart beats sounded like thunder. Hands became ice cold even though it was summer. Some were sweating like waterfalls. A few wanted to pay a visit to the loo!
“You think this is acceptable?”
Silence.
“Answer me.”
“I did my best,” the student said quietly.
“That is the problem,” came the reply. “Your best is not enough.”
The presentation ended before it truly began.
The student returned to their seat, carrying more than just criticism.
Later, whispers spread.
“They did well.”
“Yes.”
“Then why…”
“You know why.”
Everyone knew. No one said it aloud.
There were other patterns too, quieter but just as visible.
Some students never seemed to face the same scrutiny.
Assignments submitted late were accepted without comment. Mistakes that would have drawn sharp criticism in others were brushed aside with a passing remark.
“Next time, be careful,” the voice would say gently to them.
The tone was different. Softer.
“Why is it like this?” someone whispered once.
“You know who they are,” came the reply.
Everyone did.
Backgrounds mattered. Influence mattered. Wealth mattered.
“Do not get involved with them,” one student advised another. “You will only get hurt.”
“They do not even try,” came a frustrated response. “And still…”
“And still they pass,” the first finished quietly.
In practical sessions, the difference became even more obvious.
“You can go,” one was told after a brief glance at incomplete work.
“Redo everything,” another was told, even after hours of effort.
No explanation was offered. None was needed.
Fairness had conditions.
Beyond the classrooms, another layer existed. Offices where decisions were made, where complaints could be raised, where fairness was supposed to live.
But those spaces had their own priorities.
“How many admissions this year?” one voice would ask.
“More than last year.”
“That is good. We must maintain that.”
“What about the concerns raised?”
A pause.
“Handle them internally.”
“Some of them are serious.”
“All concerns are serious,” the reply came smoothly. “But reputation is more serious.”
Profit spoke louder than principle. Numbers carried more weight than narratives.
Fees had been paid. Seats had been secured. The transaction created a different kind of silence. All patrons, protectors and guardians of the Institution have been made happy with their share of profit. The fortress is secured! Some sent their children here for studies, of course, free seats! They knew they will be treated well here.
At home, conversations carried a different tone.
“We know it is hard,” a parent would say, voice heavy. “But you need to adjust.”
“I am trying,” the student replied. “It is not just difficult. It is unfair.”
“We understand,” came the response, softer now. “But you need to complete this. You need to focus on finishing.”
“They are targeting me,” the student said. “It is not normal.”
There was a long pause.
“You need to stay calm,” the parent continued. “You need to avoid conflicts. You need to not attract attention. You need to just get through this.”
The same pattern echoed again.
“But why should I accept this?” the student asked.
“Because walking away is not an option,” came the reply, almost breaking. “We have already invested so much. You need to be strong. You need to tolerate for now.”
The words were steady. The silence behind them was not.
“You need to think about your future. You need to not take risks. You need to finish what you started.”
“I feel like I am losing myself,” the student admitted.
“You will find yourself again,” the parent said, though the certainty was forced. “Just finish this first.”
They knew. They understood. But they were bound too.
They had seen similar systems.
They had survived them in their own time.
“You need to adjust,” they repeated, even as it hurt to say it.
This was followed by fortuneteller visits and regular attendance by them to places of worship. Considerable money was spent for remedial rituals and charity hoping for divine intervention and blessings.
Not everyone participated in the system. There were those who saw what was happening, who felt the discomfort, who understood the damage.
“Why do you not say something?” a student once asked quietly after class.
The response came after a long silence.
“Sometimes speaking does not change things,” the voice said. “It only changes who suffers.”
That was the tragedy.
Awareness without action.
Concern without intervention.
Silence became a shield.
And also a weapon.
Among students, divisions began to form. At first, they were subtle. Small groups that aligned themselves with authority. Students who received small favors, extra attention, a slightly easier path.
“They help us,” one of them would say. “Why should we go against them?”
“They help you,” someone corrected.
The distinction mattered.
These groups grew stronger over time. They became intermediaries. Messengers. Observers. Spies.
“If you have a problem,” they would say, “you should think carefully before raising it.”
“Why?”
“For your own good.”
Concern often masked control.
In one instance, a student tried to file a formal complaint.
“This cannot continue,” they said, standing outside an office.
“Are you sure?” a classmate asked. “Think about what will happen next.”
“I am already dealing with enough,” came the reply. “This is not living.”
The complaint was submitted.
The response was swift, though not official.
In class, the student was called out more often. Their work was scrutinized more harshly. Small mistakes were magnified.
“I expected better from you,” the voice would say, though expectations had never been clearly defined.
Peers began to distance themselves.
“I cannot be seen with you,” one admitted. “I am sorry.”
“Why?” the student asked.
“I have to think about my future.”
Isolation did what direct punishment could not. It weakened resolve. It created doubt.
The student was sent again for counseling.
“You need to stop focusing on others,” the counselor said. “You need to focus on yourself. You need to detach from negativity. You need to develop coping strategies.”
The same rhythm returned.
“You need to understand that systems are not perfect. You need to work within them. You need to adjust your expectations.”
“But the system is hurting people,” the student said.
“You need to protect your mental space,” came the reply. “You need to avoid getting involved in conflicts.”
This time the consultation fees skyrocketed but the session lasted hardly thirty minutes.
As usual, outside the room nothing changed. Inside the room everything was redirected.
At home, the echo continued.
“You need to listen to them,” the parent said. “You need to not escalate things. You need to keep a low profile.”
“What if keeping a low profile means staying silent?” the student asked.
“Then stay silent for now,” came the painful answer. “You need to get through this.”
“What if it gets worse?”
“It will end,” the parent said, though uncertainty lingered. “Just hold on.”
"This too shall pass."
The conversation ended where it always did. With endurance replacing resolution.
Their astrologer visits became frequent and remedial rituals became expensive. The places of worship included other faith as well. Stess induced illnesses attacked them severely. Doctor visits also became a routine and medical bills began accumulating. Loans increased.
“Maybe I was wrong,” the student wondered aloud one evening.
“No,” another said quietly. “You were just alone.”
That loneliness was by design.
There were also those who saw opportunity in this environment. Students who learned not just the subjects, but the system.
“You have to be smart,” one of them explained to a friend. “It is not about fighting. It is about aligning.”
“Aligning with what?”
“With power.”
They observed, adapted, and eventually mirrored the behaviors they once witnessed.
“If you want to succeed,” they would say later, “you cannot afford to be emotional.”
Empathy became a liability.
Distance became a strategy.
Some of them too visited counselors, but with different questions.
“How do I stay ahead?” one asked.
“You need to stay focused,” came the response. “You need to not get distracted by unnecessary issues. You need to maintain your priorities.”
The alignment was subtle, but present.
In group discussions, their voices carried confidence.
“You are overthinking,” they would tell others. “This is how things work.”
Normalization was the final step.
Once something is accepted as normal, it stops being questioned.
Time moved forward.
Batches graduated.
New students arrived.
The cycle continued.
Those who had adapted moved into workplaces, carrying with them the lessons they had learned.
In office settings, the patterns reappeared.
“Why did you not finish this?” a manager asked.
“I needed more time,” came the response.
“Time is not something we give,” the manager replied. “It is something you earn.”
The tone felt familiar.
The system or those who manage the system wanted robots or robot like humans. Work more and more, give us more profit, be satisfied with the peanuts we give you and stay mute until we throw you in the waste bin. Then only you will become very well adapted and aligned with the societal norms of success.
Welcome to modern slavery🙏
In meetings, subtle exclusions took place. In discussions, voices were dismissed.
“Do not make this complicated,” someone would say.
“It is already complicated,” another thought, but did not speak.
Behind closed doors, conversations unfolded.
“You have to stay in the right group,” one colleague advised another. “Otherwise, you will struggle.”
“What is the right group?”
“You will know.”
And they did.
It was the group that held influence. The group that shaped outcomes.
Old habits found new spaces.
Gossip replaced open dialogue.
Alliances replaced trust.
“You cannot trust everyone,” became a common phrase.
Sometimes it was true. Often it was a reflection of learned behavior.
There were moments of recognition. Times when someone paused and saw the pattern clearly.
“This feels wrong,” they would think.
But the response followed quickly.
“This is how things are.”
Acceptance came easier than resistance.
Not everyone adjusted. Some found the environment unbearable.
“I cannot do this,” one person said during a late night conversation with a friend.
“Then what will you do?”
“I do not know.”
Walking away felt like failure.
Staying felt like a compromise.
That internal conflict took a toll.
Some of them were advised again to seek counseling, even years later.
“You need to let go of the past,” the counselor would say. “You need to move on. You need to reframe your experiences. You need to build a positive outlook.”
"You must learn to manage your stress. There are countless people in this world having none of the comforts that you have. Think about them!"
The familiar pattern returned, unchanged by time. It is You... You... You...! You are absolutely responsible for your worries! Accept this and move forward. Don't blame others or your environment.
“But those experiences shaped me,” the person said. “They are still affecting how I think.”
“You need to focus on what you can change now,” came the reply. “You need to not dwell on what cannot be changed.”
This time too the fee was exorbitant. Yawning was frequent indicating more boredom. This time instead of parents, the partner, who was present, had fact finding session with the counselor before the actual consultation. Partner and counselor had thoughts and behavior with the same wavelength. They unanimously agreed that one must be 'practical' and 'align with power and authority' aiming for 'survival'. Did they wonder or have had a discussion how the partner became involved with this impractical person? Possible! Can't blame them, though!
As usual, nothing changed outside the room. Inside the room everything was redirected!
At home, even years later, the tone remained gentle but firm.
“You need to move forward,” the parent would say. “You need to not carry this forever. You need to build your life now.”
“And what about what happened?” came the question.
A pause.
“You need to leave it behind,” the parent said quietly. “Some things cannot be fixed.”
"This is what I had been telling all the time. I am fed up with repeating this. We(You) have to be practical to be productive. Otherwise (y)our market value will diminish." Partner chimed in, frustrated.
Alarm bells! Expect a breakup or divorce anytime sooner! You have become a commodity now.
Congrats! More stress and enjoy another feather of failure in your cap!
The weight shifted once again, gently but firmly.
Confidence eroded slowly. Not through one event, but through many.
“You are not good enough.”
“You are not trying hard enough.”
“You are not suitable.”
These messages, repeated in different forms, began to settle deep within.
Even in spaces where such voices were absent, their echoes remained.
These young adults became bald and grey haired looking old. They began taking medications for high BP and lipids. They followed their parents footsteps visiting astrologers and places of worship. Some started finding solace in ethyl alcohol among other unhealthy things. Only a handful got unconditional support from their partners and family.
Some decided to 'change' but only a few became successful. The vast majority were traumatized beyond repair by the very same persons who were supposed to mentor, guide and support.
“I am not sure I can do this,” someone would say, even when they were capable.
“Why not?”
“I just… feel like I will fail.”
Fear outlived its source.
Back in the institution, new students stood where others once stood. They noticed the same silence. The same shifts in the atmosphere.
“Is it always like this?” one asked.
Another hesitated before answering.
“You will get used to it.”
That sentence carried both warning and resignation.
Some did get used to it.
Others never did. They were labelled as 'failures'. No one cared for them except their parents. All their 'friends' and 'acquaintances' disappeared in no time. They became 'insignificant' in society.
Among the quiet resistance, small acts of kindness persisted. Notes shared. Encouragement whispered. Help offered without expectation. Low profile mentee-mentor process aiming for professional and personal growth initiated by the kind ones, just initiated!
“You did well,” someone would say softly after a harsh critique.
“It did not feel like it.”
“It was.”
Those moments mattered. Really mattered!
They reminded students that the system was not the entirety of their experience.
Yet, they were not enough to change the structure. Those voices were powerless. But it highlighted the fact that not all are bad.
Sadly, the power lies with those who manipulate the system. They remain unaccountable.
The imbalance remained.
Power without accountability creates patterns. Patterns, when repeated, become culture.
And culture shapes people.
In the end, the institution was more than its buildings or its curriculum. It was the sum of its interactions. Its silences. Its choices.
It taught more than subjects. It taught behavior.
Some lessons were explicit. Many were not.
“What did you learn?” someone once asked a graduate.
There was a pause before the answer.
“I learned how to survive.”
That was not the intended outcome. But it was the real one.
Survival, in this context, meant compromise. It meant silence. It meant adaptation.
It also meant carrying forward a version of the system, whether consciously or not.
And what did humans gain out of this cobweb? Robotic mental construct? Veiled Sadism? Mental imbalance?
The question that lingered was simple, yet difficult.
If a place designed to educate ends up shaping fear more than curiosity, control more than creativity, and silence more than expression, what does that say about its purpose?
And more importantly, what does it do to those who pass through it?
The answers were not easy. They rarely are.
But they existed, in quiet reflections, in late night conversations, in moments of clarity that came unannounced.
“I do not want to become this,” someone said once, staring at their reflection.
That awareness was a beginning.
Not a solution. Not a transformation.
But a beginning.
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